those nights

Those nights. We've all had them. The ones that honestly are just so amazing you can't even find words for them, and you don't even know what made them so amazing. But they make you smile and take your breath away every time you think about them. You know, the ones that go all night until the sun starts coming up...yeah, those ones. I know it probably sounds a little dumb, but they have changed me. Those nights I sit on my roof, and stare up at the stars and just think and wonder about everything for hours, until I see the sun starting to rise and I realize I had better get inside and sleep before I have to be up. I think about all of things I can be, and all of the things I can and will do, and how I wish I could change the world, and how I want my dream future to be, where everything turns out right. Those are the nights that give me my drive and my push to be something and be someone.
They all start out with music, it gets me into this mode and I can't run away from it. Sometimes those nights are just me by myself and other times it’s with a friend.
Those nights change me even more. They make me realize how lucky I am, and I laugh and smile until I have a six pack of abs and a muscle frozen face. Through the pain of smiling and laughing it makes me so appreciative of everything I have and everything that I am. I just become amazed and in complete awe of the universe and the world we live in. I over think everything and I try to figure out impossible things and it makes me a lot more conscience of the world and the Earth around me and I just feel like I am on top of the world and invincible.
It's like I cannot even explain how those nights are so amazing, because if I really think back to it, it was average. I was with my normal friends and we were doing normal hang-out nothings and something about it all was completely perfect and almost once-in-a-life-time-esque. And I try to explain it to others and they look at me like I should be in a circus, but inside I know that those nights changed me forever, and even though I can't explain it, I can feel it and I know it’s there. And sometimes, that is all that matters.