perception.

Listening to my Grandparents talk to my mom about what they heard about my cousins and my Aunt floored me. I myself was incomplete disbelief. But it was more shocking about how my grandparents were not proud of them, they were disgusted. I never wanted my grandparents to be disgusted with me. I was more concerned about how they saw me than how anyone else saw me. They were the people who I respected most, they are the people who I want to please, I want them to tell their friends about the wonderful things their granddaughter has done.
My grandparents have always been very helpful and loving, and I would not ever want to disappoint them. They were always talking about how they cannot believe this or that and I never wanted that. This changed me to make me work harder, to be more determined and be someone they are proud of. Hearing the things that my cousins have done to make my grandparents less proud of them has been beyond eye opening, I cherish every time my grandparents ask me how I'm doing and say how proud they are of me, it makes me melt. It makes me feel so good, and feel like all of my hard work has paid off. No matter what they push me to be better without even realizing it.
My mom told me to never do anything that I wouldn’t want to go tell my grandparents about. And I have held that in my head with everything that I do. I always hold my head up high and stay true to myself and my beliefs because I would never want to tell them why I did something, and have the reason be because I was being a follower. They taught me to be a leader and I will be nothing less.